Apology

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Sometimes I promise you 
I will not be the same person again.

Sometimes I tell you stories about how much my dad loves my mom
and promise you that we will just be like them. 

Sometimes i reckon’ that shattering voice when I am outside your door
and I promise you that I’ll stay and never be the reason for it.

But I break promises 😦 
and I do hurt you at times

But love,
I want you to know that anger is a part of me.
But it’s not all of me.

I want you to know this today that…
I am discovering what should i keep in me
and what should i let go of me.
You are always like this mirror to me. 
Giving me answers. Point at my scars
and still making me feel beautiful.
and I am very fortunate for that…

Sometimes I say too much and
you react too quickly. 
We lose momentum, and then we gain it
we lose it and we gain it again. 
But we don’t stop.
And hopefully we never will.

You know,
When I read that
Whales helped the swimmers.
When they discovered that
Dogs can be best friends.

I knew that there is not much of a difference
between humans and animals. It is not even the difference of emotions.
It is the way we interpret what we feel and what we do about it.
That is the dwelling of difference.
Guilty makes us human… sometimes more than anything else.

You see…
A person can not aboard from his character
but he who doesn’t try too often is not a man either.

I understand very well that I have hurt you today
and that ‘I am not supposed to talk to you’
But it is a big part of who I am now.
And talking to you makes me realize that
even if my whole world is tearing apart
in front of my eyes…
As long as i have you, I can save it.
And I can build it all over again.

So here I am,
trying one more time to gain the momentum.
To fix the broken and make you smile.

And if you think its worth a chance…

This is an Apology. 

 

 

 

 

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Chance…

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But the thing is
My love,

We are all petrified.
Its a test and no one wants to walk through the fire.

It dawns on us. Flattens us.
To give someone the key to our heart again.

But it is worth a chance.
Life is itself a chance, my love.

I know how the sky breaks apart and the soar sunken world heads into the sea.
What is worse than a breaking heart when you know it…

Sometimes, all of us are unaware
that we are waiting for the things that are never going to happen
and sometimes we know it right in our bones.
We wait for people who are never coming back.
We still wait don’t we?
The person who has decided to go…
Only sees that door.
Not the person behind.
But we wait.
We still wait.
.

.

.

.

Until we don’t.

I understand that you have been there.
I have been there too.
The place where you wish that the death may take us.

You hate now don’t you?
The voice of shutting doors. I do too.

I know that there is nothing that I will say
make you believe that I am the one.

But the best thing that I have learnt from life
is that the most wonderful things happen
When you put your faith in people 🙂
When you lend them a hand they never expected
When you give them a chance they never got.

And most of all, I know you.
You are beautiful.
And you are brave.

This time I hope,
You walk through the fire
just one more time.
This time for me.
I’ll walk with you and
I promise my love,
Every second when you are in there…

My hands will be under your feet.

The Beautiful Tragedy!

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“Once upon a time
In the flow of rhyme,
Two souls met in eyes
and connection was sublime.

Where else you fell together!
Perhaps always in love
Time speckled them with colors
From down under and above.

Alas somewhere… amidst the elation
cuddled the baby fingers,
A thousand promises overnight
And destiny held the trigger.

Broken apart in the distance of words
And one promise then, a piece of mirror
In all darkness with bowing in corners
No heaven bestowed the shimmer.

Being all alone in crowd
in their invisible cloaked shroud
They spoke of their love
But silence covered the loud

Of what beauty then promises…
that break people with fallacy
evaded by their own soulmate!
They live ages beautiful but in tragedy…”

 

 

 

 

 

The Mirror

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Lights are out
The diary is lost
But I pick up the canvas
And a few crumbled pages

I hear the pen yearning to write
I see the colors painting the white
I spread my arms,
Smell the rain
Pierce my bones!
Its craving to hold on
to the window pane

I look up to the sky
It drops me the words I desire.
And in this cold

it ignited the fire

Memories are ready
Nostalgia is chasing
Euphoria is rushing
Writer cuddles the metaphors
The painter blushes

And the shackled voice
Frees itself…

in the name of silence
in the sense of poetry
in the form of colors
I paint sensation,

The nail biting news

And all of our lives…
in red and blues
Couplets of promises
knocking my door 

demanding their dues.

All the clamour

Amidst the glamour
Shriek and shimmer
for you my enamour.

Obliterating the darkness 
rises a glimmer
Poetry and shades

Intertwined to make a MIRROR.

Every night
in the splendid moonlight
You read in that mirror
The Universe speaks
of those shades again,
It sings of you
counting the stars…
It listens to your feet
dancing magic in the rain!

The writer, The painter
Deep down you know him.
You open those yellow crumbled pages
You caress the shades
with tender touch…

But when will you understand…
The crumbled page speaks of you!
The shades are all the colors of you.

Do you ever recall us ?
Do you ever realize
All this time
in the mirror

It was You
It has always…
been you…

 

The wind and the yellow leaf

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For all the seasons we have lived together,
You were the wind and I… the yellow leaf.

Today I have fallen on to the ground.
What aches is not that I fell down
but the nostalgia of flying all the way through with you.
I have felt the heavens kissing my face.
And believe me,
you treasured me with you being yourself only!

But what pierce my bones is that
you never told me
you were about to abandon this forlorn heart

You promised to make a life while living the seasons!
And one day,
Between the wish to fly and fear to fall down
I did fell in love with you.

People often say fallen leaves live no more,
But see how your love immortalized the life forever in me.

Its just that I don’t expect things.
And may be
I did not expect you to leave…
Your memories make and break me on the very same moment!

I have been asking the mighty to entwine you out of me.
And its an ironic scenario when I myself do not want to let you go…

The yellow leaf is in love with this pain now!
So what if we make a dilemmaThis dilemma is magic!
After all my love,

Its you in me…
Its you in me…

You will smile…

smile

And though there have been some distances,
And I know those days are never going to come back,
Where we would talk about endless things
And clock on that wall could just read our faces and let the time pass to infinity.

May be you moved on!
But its always been about your smile!
My heart is in pieces, broken to a thousand times.

Walk over it,
let my blood be spilled on to every memory i wrote about us
Let the wrenching pain engulf me in its darkness!

But promise…
If not with me, then someone else…
You will smile…
You will smile…

Light up your world!

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My Love…
On some days you will feel like carrying hells upon your head
Black holes! Immense heaviness of dark! on your back
Your trust will be on the edge…
Demons will try to fade you away
World will count you in the broken… brutally damaged goods!
They will use and throw you like anything…

But remember
You do not need anyone to complete you.
You just need someone to tell you…
that you are complete.
You don’t need someone else’s light
You need someone to drag you into the light that lies in you… no one… just you!!

And you need to know this darling…
Rare good hearts still lie in the lap of honesty.
And they really want you to smile 🙂

They just look too tiny in between the selfishness of humanity!
But just notice…
Look around you
May be you find them in the lines you read…
And I promise, once you find them
You go through a phenomenal change!
They will tell you that you are perfect in your imperfections
Make you feel complete in yourself
They will remove the dirt over your trust
And most of all…
They will light up your world! 🙂

Proving love…

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No world will ever
Keep in front such a deal,
Where love would not hurt
And that hurt would never heal

You fall in love,
And rise with hopes…
Your emotions are struck brutally…
Like soul is dragged by a rough rope… 

Saying your heart out…
Never completes a story…
It is just the beginning…
Of a misunderstood theory! 

You have to make promises,
Believe in her on concrete roads,
Where incomings of time…
Can make the light love  ‘Shoulder loads…’ 

Only when you die off for exact ingredients…
Love tastes a delicious meal 🙂
Even the ‘broken you’ has to stand again
To reach what you assumed to feel… 

No world will ever
Keep in front such a deal,
Where love would not hurt,
N that hurt would never heal… 

There will be in the way,
Many heartbreaking moments…
But lover is the one
Who will stick to his commitments…

You have to swipe off her tears…
That hammer burn her soul…
Hold her hand and hug her tight
Make her smile – your life and goal  🙂

Many confess their feelings,
And tell that they mean it
But he who loves go to depth!
To define his love by doing… 

You can quit!
Before you start
But then don’t say you ‘Love’
As it need guts! and courage of a heart… 

With how much ever are you left…
Against the hardships that peel!
Be a Lover and keep moving forward…
There is nothing what cosmos can steal!!

 No world will ever
Make such a deal,
Where love would not hurt 😦
N that hurt would never heal… 🙂

I define it –

PROVING LOVE…

(I wrote this poem last year on valentine’s day when I was thinking how casual is half of the world about love
It is easy… really easy
But only when you believe in yourself and your partner
But it is a truth too…
True lovers are very few!! 
Please increase the number 🙂 )